Ever since my youth,

my father has always said to me

"You have to become so happy that no one can deny you're happy."

I always felt a sense of comfort, and discomfort, in those words.

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On the day of my sister's wedding he said

"Now, I am one step closer to happiness, and no one can deny it."

In other words,

"Once all my children have gotten married, everyone will see me as happy."

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In this moment, my feelings of confusion were finally clear. 

I finally understood the discomfort that in some way

my every action was tied into completing my father's "happiness."

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I know not all his thoughts and words are not completely wrong.

But still I can't help but feel my heart revolt when he says 

"Do it for me." 

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I sewed these words onto this dress to clear my mind. 

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